Your Love is Extravagant

There are many times in my life where I come to a point where I realize that I don't have it "all together". Whether that means that God makes known to me the sins I have committed, or if someone I trust rebukes me of my sins. Then there is this voice at the back of my head that tells me how I should have never started doing what I was doing for God in the first place when all I'll do is fail again. Then I dwell up on all those thoughts and eventually making me rethink about why I do the things I do in life. Then sometimes even making drastic changes in my life and quitting things I think I am not good at or thinks that God made a mistake in picking me to do what He called me to. This is the viscous cycle my mind goes through each time I am disappointed about how sinful I really am. Truth is everyone is sinful just like I am and over the years I had to realize that I’m not alone in that struggle. So I shouldn't feel like what I am going through is strange and unreal to many people. And recently God has just been speaking to my heart about the real meaning of the cross. I know we all know the story of Jesus dying on the cross for our sins and paying that price so we can be with God for eternity, but something clicked in my mind like never did before. I finally understood that no matter how bad I messed up in life He would continue to drench me with His blood and cleans my heart each time I asked for it. Not saying I didn't realize this before, but for some reason It made more sense, and the fact that I even had the strength to turn from my sins each time was cuz of Him! His love is so extravagant that nothing in this world can separate us from His love. He loves us soo much that even if we sin He'll forgive us, not saying that we shouldn't make the effort to turn from them, but to honestly repent and ask God for forgiveness. Even if life gets you down I am reminded that it says in Isaiah 41 that He will renew our strength and will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. And I get excited about that! It's like having never ending energy! Like being able to do what He has asked us above and beyond what we expect cuz He is out hope! He is our strength! I shouldn't be looking down at myself pitying the sins I have committed and decide that living for Him isn't good enough cuz I fail at it all the time. No, I should get back up on my feet ask for forgiveness and fight for battle again! I have new strength now! I can fight whatever the enemy throws at me! So the next time you are going through a tough patch be reminded of God's strength that comes with being renewed in His love. :)