Someone's Watching over Me

It has been one crazy month for me here in the lovely land of blooming cherry blossoms. Just when I would tell myself that I would sit down for an hour or two and write a blog post I end up doing either homework or hanging out with people. I didn’t used to be this spontaneous back in high school; to be honest a lot of the things I did back home were pretty much planned. Most of ya’ll who know me know that I’m pretty much a planner; I still am, but ever since I have gone to college God has been teaching me to plan less, and trust Him to take the lead. It’s not always easy being a crazy college student who wants to take every opportunity and just decide for herself right on the spot. I always find myself trusting God with everything He is doing, and then when I have tons of homework to do I find myself planning not only in that area, but also in every aspect of my life as well, including my Spiritual life. I would end up telling God what to do and how to do it at a specific time, instead of just walking with Him and letting Him guide the way. I end up becoming a control freak about so many things that I end up stressing myself out more than I have to. It’s definitely one of those lessons I am learning here right now. Thankfully God isn’t the kind of god who would smite you each time you try to take things to your own hands, but I had to learn it the hard way.

It all started on Friday morning, where I woke up sleep deprived from studying for my history midterm. My phone said it was 11 o’clock; I had two hours left before my exam. It was raining outside so that did not exactly help with my mood that morning. I woke up a little groggy and slightly upset knowing I wasn’t going to the batting cages with my friends cuz of the rain. I took my history midterm with the strength that God gave to me, cuz honestly speaking I wouldn’t have been able to take that test being so sleep deprived. I ended up going through the motions of the day…still being super tired. I had lunch with a friend still feeling pretty moody cuz the rain hasn’t exactly stopped and somehow I was thinking about how I did on my history midterm. It was Good Friday yet I totally forgot about it until I was reminded of going to church that night with a group of friends. I was exhausted through the bus ride there, I seriously thought about just staying home and sleeping. But somehow as I poured my heart out during worship and my fatigue all melted away. I was filled with so much energy! It was an amazing feeling! And the message also gave me a whole new different perspective of Jesus’ suffering. It was pretty cool.

Then as we were on the bus heading home I told myself I would go straight home and just rest. Although I had energy from the worship I didn’t want to abuse my body cuz I was sick earlier that week. But then somehow (don’t ask me how…) I ended up deciding to go and have dinner with a few friends. We had a great time hanging out playing games first before finding a restaurant. It was fun hanging out with them and just enjoying the conversations that took place. But then after dinner I looked into my bag and couldn’t find my wallet. I took out everything thinking it might just be in the bottom or something, but it was nowhere to be found. We looked around the restaurant and I searched in my pockets thinking I might have just misplaced it, but still nowhere…the group split up; 3 of them went to the games place where we were to see if I might have left it there and two other friends helped me look around the restaurant. Still nothing… I was feeling hopeless; I didn’t know what to do. All my cards were there including my student ID card, my alien registration card, and my debit card. I was starting to panic inside much more than I was reflecting on the outside. We went back to the place we played games earlier cuz everyone else wanted to try all the other games. Around midnight my friends could tell I was getting upset as I was trying to call and figure out how to cancel my cards. After I got the numbers, my friends decided to pray for me. They asked God to give me joy and peace despite the circumstances. I deff. felt peace after that prayer, and enjoyed the rest of the night with them. With the help of all my friends they all contributed to helping me cancel my cards and making me feel better by getting me a stuffed animal from playing the games.

I felt so loved and truly enjoyed my time at karaoke place until 4 in the morning. We were all pretty much beat, exhausted and delusional by the time we all walked back home. But one thing I didn’t anticipate, shocked me beyond belief. As I walked back to my room with a friend we found a note on my door. It told me to pick up my

wallet down stairs…. I couldn’t believe it, was this for real? I thought it was a joke for a few seconds, but then went downstairs to make sure. When my friend and I went down to the information area I asked about my wallet. And low and behold the guy at the information desk handed it over and gave me a piece of paper. The paper showed me who found it and what time the police took it back to my dorm. I was amazed! I couldn’t help but be thankful in awe of what God did! My wallet apparently got to my dorm around midnight! That was around the same time my friends prayed for me! God is truly amazing! Right then I felt like God was saying that I no longer needed to plan things in my life. Cuz I can’t control anything that happens anyways. To hand Him the steering wheel of my life didn’t mean I would lose all my hope, dreams, and things that He planted in me to desire but rather gaining all that and more. God promises us so many things in His word that tells us of His great love. Why do we continue on going with our lives thinking we can do it all, when we can’t even do well in one area. This is a season in my life where I feel like He is just saying “Walk with me, my child.” And I know that everything else will fall into place. So I don’t need to worry, or even plan, cuz Someone’s watching over me. J