Let it Begin

The first month into the semester can be pretty crazy. It feels like holding your breath and plunging into the water. It can get a bit out of hand sometimes, but I always love new things :) Getting to know people, hanging out with them, trying to remember their names and all that. In my opinion its one of the best times! Just cuz its an awesome opportunity to make new friends. I love how everything is new and fresh. You make new connections to see of you know someone who knows someone and knows that person. It can be quite interesting. I personally like doing that just to see how small the world really is. Another addition to this beginning is the fact we don't have that much work to do since it's the beginning of the school year!!

It's all so exciting. But for some reason I felt weird this time around. I'm not sure what it was. Maybe I was jet lagged (which is highly unlikely cuz the Philippine is only an hour difference from Korea) or not fully liking how cold it was in Korea. I don't know the real reason. Like I explained in my previous posts I didn't feel anything. I felt like I was going through the motions. None of the things I used to do last semester seemed to work. The way I talked to people, the way I tried to spend time with them, the way I even communicated with God was different. I used to walk around the campus especially around the forest just talking to Him and I would hear what He wanted to say to me for that day. But this time around when I would walk I couldn't hear His voice. Instead I would get these flashbacks of my freshman year around the same time.

I was so uncomfortable with the change. I know I said I like new things and I do get pumped up about it but it's the feeling that comes after that makes me uneasy. As fun as the new things are, accepting them as the new reality is a totally different story.

Getting used to everything new can be such a challenge, but it's always setting me up for something more :)